Title: Last Encounter
Author: Darkestangel
Summary: Jack recalls his pre-Stargate past
with Kawalsky and he remembers how he learned about Charlie’s symbiote
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Archive: yes, with permission
Pairing: Jack/Kawalsky
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: They’re not mine. I am only
borrowing them from the brilliant creators of the movie/show,
Author’s Notes: 1. This is some missing scenes from Season one’s “The
Enemy Within”
2. References to
My first mission back to the
I also got to work with Charlie
Kawalsky again. We had worked together in
When I retired after the first
Stargate mission, I pretended like Charlie Kawalsky never existed. I deleted
his email, I “lost” his phone number, and I ignored all of his phone calls and
visits. I thought that if I refused to see or talk to him my attraction would
go away. I was wrong. If anything it escalated. I had been with men in the
When we were reunited at the
When I walked into the locker room,
I saw him standing by his locker, “Did the Doc check out that headache
Kawalsky?” I asked watching him towel of his wet chest. He had recently
showered, and I wanted nothing more than to lick the water off his body.
“She gave me some Aspirin, and
ordered me to stay on base for the next couple of days. She said that it was
probably the stress of being sent through the Stargate.”
“She’s probably right, but you never
know. Maybe you’re allergic to sand or something.”
He smiled warmly, “I’m sorry about
Skaara. I know you two were close on the first mission.”
“We’ll find him and Sha`re, so let’s
not talk about it anymore.”
He stepped closer to me, “What do
you want to talk about? I know, how about your inability to return calls or
open doors?”
I winced in shame, “I’m sorry about
that, but I was going through some shit, and I didn’t want to be around
anyone.”
“Anyone…or just me? Because I got
the sense that you were ignoring me for some reason.”
I took a step away from him hoping
to avoid the truth, “I was ignoring everyone, not just you.”
He stepped closer forcing my back to
the wall, “Are you sure about that Colonel? You seem awfully nervous right
now.”
I licked my lips involuntarily as he
pierced me with his eyes, “I’m not nervous. I just have things on my mind.”
“Really? Like what?”
“Skaara, Ferretti, world peace, the
Simpsons.”
His smile lit the entire room, “You
still watch that show? I’ll never forget that time we watched that twelve hour
Simpson’s marathon on
I looked down at the ring less finger,
“I suppose they have. Have you changed any?”
“Yeah…I have changed. I have more
courage to do this…” he leaned in and kissed me gently on the lips. I eagerly
kissed him back almost attacking his mouth. We hugged each other into a tight embrace,
both of us too afraid to break contact. Neither one of us wanted to give the
other a chance to change their mind, so we kissed for several minutes,
struggling to breath, and to stay on our feet.
It was me who finally ended the
kiss, “Lock the door Charlie,” I ordered as I practically tore off my t-shirt.
“Are you sure you want to do this
here? It’s not exactly where I pictured this happening for the first time.”
“Beggars can’t be choosers Charlie.
Lock the door and get your ass back over here.”
He hurriedly did as he was told, and
before I knew it, he had my pants off, and he was on his knees sucking me off.
I held on tightly to his shoulders as he practically swallowed me whole. He
sucked like a
“Give it to me Jack. I’ve been dying
to taste you for years. Let me have it. Shoot it in my mouth,” he demanded
stroking me to climax. I closed my eyes as I shot my warm load down my Major’s
mouth.
I couldn’t stop smiling as he took
it all down, and I wondered why in the hell I had denied myself of this
pleasure for so many years. I was dying to pleasure him and return, and I began
to reach for his crotch. However, I watched in surprise as he pulled my pants
up and handed me my t-shirt, “That’s it? Don’t you want more? I know I do.”
“Jack, this is not how I want you
the first time. I want it to be special.”
“Well the blow job was pretty
special to me. I’m sure a fuck would be even better.”
He smiled sadly, “A Fuck? Is that
what you think I want from you? Didn’t you get enough of that at the Academy
and in
I pulled my t-shirt on hastily, “
He grabbed my arm as I headed for
the door, “I just meant that you’re worth more than that. I want to take my
time and show you how I feel about you. If I wanted to fuck a piece of ass up
against the locker room wall I would have brought Ferretti in here.”
“You and Ferretti have fucked?”
“No! I just mean that he doesn’t
mean the same thing to me that you do. I want to do it right you know?”
I rolled my eyes teasingly, “What? You
want a bed and candles? How about some romantic music and incense?”
He pulled me in for another kiss,
“That would be ideal. Can you bust me out of the base for the night? We could
go to your house and take this further.”
“I don’t know about that. The Doc is
pretty insistent that you stay here. Let’s wait until your headache goes away,
and your all clear for duty.”
He kissed me again, obviously
frustrated with my denial, “Shit Jack. I don’t know if I can wait that long.”
“Then take me now up against the
wall. It would serve as a taste of what’s to come when we get time alone,” I
suggested stroking his rock hard erection through his pants. He rocked his hips
back and forth allowing me to grope him, and he continued feasting on my mouth.
Without warning, he shoved me back
up against the wall and growled, “Jack, stop tempting me. This is not how I
want it. I’ve wanted you for the last eight years, and I can wait another day
or two. I want you to behave yourself, and respect my choice.”
I pouted and complained, but I
stopped my seduction, and watched him walk back towards his locker. He got
dressed trying to avoid my glares and my sighs of disappointment, “So you’re
just going to assume that I can wait and that I won’t change my mind?”
He slammed his locker and closed his
eyes in frustration, “You denied me for years Jack, and now you’re pissed
because I’ve asked you to wait for the proper time? You don’t have the right to
be pissed at me. You’re the one who ignored me for the last year. Hell, I didn’t
even know about your kid dying until
“I don’t want to talk about Charlie.
Just drop it.” I barked back heading for the door.
Once again he grabbed my arm before
I could leave, “That’s it Jack. Clam up like always. You don’t want to talk
about it, fine, but you and I will have this conversation before we take this
thing between us any further. When you’re ready to talk about it, you know
where I am.”
Dumbfounded, I watched him walk out
the door wondering what the hell went wrong.
I waited exactly three hours before
I hunted him down. I had to fix the shit I caused, and if I was lucky, I might
get to have a little fun as well. I found him in the room that he shared with
Ferretti and two members from SG-2. Ferretti was in the infirmary and SG-2 was
prepping for its first mission through the Stargate. I reached to knock on the
door, but he opened the door before I had a chance. I was surprised that he
knew I was at the door, and I wondered when he had developed such a keen sense
of smell or sound.
When he saw me, he smiled and welcomed
me in, “That didn’t take long Jack. I was hoping that you would come here to
me.”
I watched as he closed and locked
the door, and I didn’t hesitate to apologize, “I’m sorry for being pissed at you.
I had no right to be, and I should have told you about Charlie, but I was
afraid of getting closer to you. I know that I’ve been an asshole, but I also
know that I want you more than anything else in this world. I’ve always wanted
you.”
He didn’t give a verbal response,
but his mouth responded quite well. He kissed me hard pushing me up against the
bunk bed, and he reached down into my pants stroking me to hardness. I tried to
break from the kiss to catch my breath, but he wouldn’t let go of my mouth as
he tore my shirt off. I moaned in surprise as he pushed me down onto the bed
forcefully, and he stopped kissing me long enough to take off my boots and my
pants.
I grabbed his hand as it reached for
my dick, “Charlie, what’s gotten in to you? I thought you wanted to wait?”
“Screw that shit! We got a bed at
least, and we’re all alone.”
“We could get caught.” I warned as
he began kissing my neck.
“That didn’t seem to bother you in
the locker room. Besides, I’ve waited long enough. Tell me you want me like I
want you,” he begged sucking on my earlobe and pinching a nipple.
“Yes, I want you Charlie, but you’re
acting like a completely different person than you were three hours ago.”
He stopped kissing me and instead
sucked on his large finger. I watched as he brought the saliva coated finger
down to the skin just below my balls and rubbed. The finger inched its way
down, and I was in agony as he spread my cheeks apart and teased the tight
entrance with the tip of his finger, “What can I say Jack? Frustration can
drive a man crazy. I want you and it’s obvious that you want me, so I’m going
to end both of our aggravation tonight.”
I didn’t stop him when he pushed the
finger inside of me. I didn’t care that I was completely naked, while he was
fully clothed, and I didn’t mind that he was in complete control of the
situation. He carefully inserted two more fingers inside of me, loosening my
hole up for his much larger cock.
He continued fingering me as he
unzipped his pants. I watched him push them down to his knees, and I thought
that it was strange for him to do so. Just three hours earlier he had told me
that he wanted to take me slowly, and show me what I meant to him. Now it
seemed that he only wanted to dominate and fuck me. Despite my reservations, I
didn’t stop him from entering me. The pain was immediate, the discomfort of
being impaled almost made me stop him, but he slowly penetrated me, quickly
turning the pain into pleasure. It felt so good having him inside of me. It was
consuming and passionate. We licked, sucked, scratched, and bit each other
almost violently. I shuddered in pleasure tearing the blanket and sheets from
the bed, and the bed springs screamed in displeasure as he pounded into me.
“Mine, you’re mine Jack,” he
announced as he filled my insides with wet sticky semen. I smiled liking the
idea of being his. He stroked me in his fist until I erupted in pleasure as
well. He bent down and kissed me once again stroking the side of my face
tenderly.
“God, that was even better than the
Simpsons. I think I would like to do that for twelve hours the next time we’re
in the mood for a marathon,” I joked massaging his sweaty back with my hands.
“I want you O’Neill,” he stated
taking my hands into his own and placing them above my head.
“You just had me Charlie, “I smiled
trying to rub my crotch up against his.
“I want you O’Neill,” a metallic
voice rang out. I looked up into his glowing eyes and stared in shock as the
“Get the fuck off of me! Charlie,
snap out of this. Let me go before…”
“Before what?” it interrupted,
“Before I take you as my host instead or before I take your body for pleasure
again?”
“Again?”
“Yes…We BOTH took you. He has wanted
you for so long willing to wait an eternity for you to want him in return. I on
the other hand, didn’t want to wait, so I took what I wanted.”
“Charlie you have to fight him. Let
me get you the help you need,” he ran his tongue down my neck and up to my
mouth, “Charlie! Stop the snakehead. I know you can.”
The metallic voice laughed cruelly
holding me down easily, “This is why the
“Yeah, I just won’t have a free will
or choice in any matter,” I kneed him as hard as I could in the groin. I found
out that day that even the
“Damn, all that power and strength,
and yet a kick in the nuts took you down.”
He rolled around on the floor in
agony, “Jack, what the hell was that for?”
Kawalsky rolled over onto his back
and I noticed that the glowing eyes were gone, “Charlie, what’s the last thing
you remember?”
“That’s a stupid question Jack.”
“Answer me!”
“We were arguing in the locker room,
and I walked out. How the hell did we get in my quarters?”
“Let’s just get you to the infirmary
for now. I guess you passed out from your headache.”
“Why the hell are my pants down?”
“I’ll explain it to you later.”
“Damn, I got my pants down with you
in the room, and I passed out?”
“I guess so”, I lied preferring for
him to hear the truth about the
He stood up and fastened his pants,
“Promise me next time that you slap me silly and wake me up. I don’t ever want
an opportunity to be naked with you pass.”
I smiled in agreement and escorted
him to the infirmary. I never did tell him the truth about what happened
between us. I didn’t want to add to the fear and guilt he had on him because of
the snake. He had killed a man with his bare hands, and I didn’t want to add to
his misery with the truth about our intimacy. It would have torn him apart to
know that the snake fucked me; not him. He had wanted our first time to be
special, and I wasn’t about to tell him the truth; that it was anything but
special. It had been quick, possessive, and violent, and it had reminded me of
That fucking snake caused me to kill
Charlie by closing the Stargate down with his head in the wormhole, and even
though I knew it was the right thing to do, I couldn’t help but to think about
the snake less Charlie, and what he had meant to me. It had taken me six years
to be comfortable with intimacy again, and I truly trusted Kawalsky with my
body and soul, but instead of receiving happiness, I received reaffirmation
that I was nothing but a conquest for men, and I promised myself that I would
never allow that to happen again.
This was
originally part of a series called “The Truth Behind the Stargate.” I never had
a chance to work on the series, so I have made this a stand-alone story.
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